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Separation from Presence

QUESTION : I am interested to know what you mean when yo say that you lost touch with presence when you were at the English Teacher training since the non dualistic way suggests that presence is always there. ANSWER:  I find that I am always making new discoveres about myself and the world that I am connected [...]

Discover Your Own Wisdom

People who are attached to sutras and a scriptural teaching of words can lack faith in the living, mysterious experience of meditation that leads to a sudden insight. They are usually too caught up in the expedient means of words and speech, attached to the stubborn habit of distinguishing between “true” and “not true.” Believing [...]

A Balance of Mind, Heart and Selfhood

In my personal exploration of Germany I have discovered that the Germans developed the idea of Bildung which refers to the process of harmonization of mind, heart, selfhood and identity. They made great effort to incorporate these ideas into the university curriculum in the 1800s. I beliieve that developing this quality of harmony and coming [...]

Wandering From Truth

When I am having a bad day I intuitively know that I have wandered from authentically following the heart within. In contemplation I realize that straying from my truth results in a consequence; that of experiencing self doubt or despair or something other of the sort. I need mostly to realize that my wandering is of the mind and subtle [...]

Challenging Static Patriarchal Ways

I received an invitation to attend a lecture session at Trent University by a Rosemary Ganley the other day. The theme of the lecture  series has to do with following in the way of  Margaret Lawrence in her hope to bring attention to the importance of embracing more feminist theisms and seeing the limitation of patriarchal ideologies. [...]

Can we Make Ourselves Change?

I am right now taking a course to become an English language teacher in Berlin. It is a one month long program and it is very intense , difficult and cerebral work. I am expected to go through eight practice session with learners who I do not know while being assessed and observed by five [...]

Awareness or Not

It is quite a different way to live to be conscious. I was reading Alice Miller today who was an accomplished psycho analyst and author. She wrote the book “Thou Shall Not Be Aware”. She implies that parents and in general people  and even  renowned analysts and authors of the subject are often not aware. This [...]

Depression or Something Else

I am an avid  reader and indulge myself with many insping and creative artists and writers who are and were greatly reflective and who struggled with life, with eccentricity, depression and health. A few of my favorites  are Ranier Maria Rilke and Jonathan Franzen, David Foster Wallace, Pablo Neruda, Alice Miller and Walt Whitman. There are many more [...]

A Letter to a Friend

In processing what you and  your friend are going through and reflecting on what I have experienced I share this entry with you. I feel that over the years of meditation I have not actively expected results from it. I have  followed this way more out of a deeper feeling of calm and ease that [...]

Opening to the Mystery

I am expressing here my experience of struggle and my new learning to look at it in a deeper way. Meditation helps one in this kind of reflection. From this I have come to see something deeper in myself. I read the other day that “human kind is conditioned not to see the truth.” It was [...]